September 24, 2011

Birthday Drawing from Anthony


This drawing and an equally colorful letter was in the mail for me today.  It meant a lot to me - although I don't quite get the blue thing, is it a frog?

I've never stopped loving this kid.  I don't write about him much anymore, but we talk once a week and I go see him every few weeks.  Once again he's saying all the right things, but something is different this time.  That does not mean I think he's going to make it - or not - I just see a huge difference in how he's spending his days, what he's talking about with me, and his attitude.  Time will tell.

Its nice to have one "son" that is able to articulate his feelings toward me.  I know Keven loves and appreciates me, but he doesn't say it much and sometimes a hug from him feels like hugging a stuffed animal - not very reciprocal.  So right or wrong, I admit, I enjoy that Ant's personality is a bit more like mine:  introspective, loving,  and able to express feelings openly.

Tomorrow I get to see Keven on my birthday!  Last two years I think he was in jail for it.  We are bringing a picnic lunch to Unidos.  I know he can't get me a gift or make me a card, so I am hoping for a really good hug.  But all I really want from him - is sobriety.

Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Barbara!

Annette said...

Happy Birthday!!! I know what you mean....its like we have 2 different kids.

Tori said...

WOW! How beautiful!!!! I don't know what the blue thing is but maybe just a beautiful creation he was thinking in his mind.

I am so happy to hear he is doing well.

Happy Birthday!

Bar L. said...

Thanks for the birthday wishes :)

Topper said...

Happy Birthday!

Dad and Mom said...

Happy Birthday, hope all your wished come true

Mike said...

The skull in the flower is pretty symbolic

Bar L. said...

Hi Mike. What do you think it symbolizes? I didn't think much of it cause he draws them on everything, but now that you mention it...

Anonymous said...

Happy (belated) Birthday To you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday Dear Barbara!
Happy Birthday To You!

Doesn't look like any frog I've ever seen. It's segmented almost like a caterpillar? (a tattooed caterpillar at that!) hmmm. And, yeah, what is it with our kids and skulls?

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