Today I am angry, disappointed, hurt, worried and ANGRY.
I've come to find out that Keven is not taking his recovery as seriously as he should if he truly wants to get better. He's not using but he's walking a fine line. I can't help but wonder how much this has to do with him being so close to his buddy Jon who is the person who got him started on this in the first place. I'm not saying Keven is incapable of making bad choices on his own - he's a pro at that. But when two addicts are together you know how much easier it is to fall. I was told that although the two rehabs share a building the residents don't interact much, but my source tells me they do.
I am really upset.
But....I am going out tonight to hear music for the first time in a long time. I rather crawl in bed and watch mindless TV till I pass out but this is the only life I have, so I better start living it rather than allowing his disease to make me sick too.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara