Last night I was getting my hair cut and weaved by my wonderful friend/hairstylist when I got a call from Keven. He said he was somewhere in Santa Ana and didn't know where he was but that he was scared. He said he'd been surrounded by cops with tasers (really? then why aren't you in jail?). He insisted that I come and get him.
Don't worry - I didn't do it! He was angry and called half an hour later to tell me not to bother coming to get him (I had already said I wasn't) because he'd called 911 on himself.
I went to bed. I got up this morning (day off) walked the dogs, visited my aunt, stopped by to visit Anthony's grandparents, read blog....etc. Eventually I got a call from a hospital in SA from a psychiatric nurse. We chatted and she told me she was recommending a transfer to St. Joseph's "Level 1" (i.e. 5150/involuntary hold).
Keven called later and I asked him where his belongings were he said they were safe but with someone he didn't want me to know about. Ok. Whatever. Then he asked me to bring him some stuff (underwear, socks, etc) and I said I would bring him those things tomorrow after work because I'd be much closer to St. Joe's but I wasn't in the mood to drive in traffic tonight.
Wow, was he pissed. When we hung up I said my usual "I love you" and he said "I love you too....I guess".
Anthony's grandmother said "now you know why I prefer to be angry all the time, it sure beats being worried or sad!"
I know I don't HAVE to bring him jack crap, but I choose to bring him some essentials and I'll admit - I'm curious what a visit with him will be like.
PAMMIE'S BLOG POST IS A MUST READ. Its not an easy read, but once again she's helped me by speaking from the addicts point of view. I know Keven has never felt right inside, I started noticing that when he was just a young kid. I also know that he will never be a "normie" which tears me up inside. But the most important thing I got from her is that there is NOTHING I can do to help him. There's nothing any of us can do. They have to want it. Thankfully, Anthony finally does. We'll see about Keven.
Read her post HERE
Peace, Hope and Love,