I am distraught. If you knew me "BH" (before heroin) you would know that I lived a very calm, peaceful lifestyle as opposed to one full of drama and crisis. But now, well you know how it is.
Today, I had eye surgery (thanks for all the well wishes on FB!). No, not to look better, unfortunately, it was just on one eyelid to remove a suspicious lesion. Now I have half my eyelid stitched together, its swollen, red and hurts.
So in the midst of trying to relax and ice my eye, I am being inundated with phone calls from various people because the police are out to get Anthony today, they've been making their rounds and want to hide out at my house and have me lure him over here.
I agreed to try only because Anthony belongs in prison. With him there so many lives would be better, safer, less stressful, etc. Apparently he's been selling and "several people" have recently been negatively effected by him. The cops would not elaborate.
The thing is - he was JUST HERE but I refused to see him, I left his iPod on the front porch. So to get him back here won't be easy. Plus - do I really want to be that involved? I am trying to disengage myself from this drama, not be in the center of it.
As far as Keven goes - he's never been so upset in jail before, he's a wreck wondering what it going to happen. I know on one hand he may deserve that, but I hate knowing he's got himself so worked up, its really bad for him with his mental issues.
If I got vacation time - I'd be heading out soon for a quiet stay in a cabin by a lake....
Hope and Love,