July 21, 2011

Sorry for the inconvenience....

I put my blog on private for a day because I was going to go through and remove any and everything that had to do with Ant.  I chose to leave it all and only remove the information I shared here the other day about the latest "news".  I didn't feel comfortable having that news in a public area so I took it off.

Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in a long time because I was a wreck worrying about the possible repercussions of my actions...I was concerned for the safety of my family.

The important thing is:  its over.  He's out of my life.  He's out of Keven's life.  I will admit, I still love the kid.  I can't help myself.

Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara

10 comments:

Max said...

You are allowed to love him. Your heart gives you no say in that anyways. Your just not allowed to continue to make yourself (or your family, K included) an easy victim for him. But your head is telling you that.

Sue said...

Oh, wow, worrying about the repercussions of your actions - that would be massive brain fodder for stressing yourself out to the maximum. Yuk.

Combined with probably feeling guilty about what you did (cos them boundaries seem to take about 50 decades to fit properly without chafing) and loving and worrying about him too ... you must be exhausted :(

You have a beautiful heart, Barbara.

A Mom's Serious Blunder said...

Glad to hear he is out of your life and it probably was a very good decision to remove that "other" info. Praying for you all/

Lou said...

That was a good call Barbara; but I'm under the impression once your post is picked up by a feed it never goes away?

Syd said...

I am glad, Barbara. I can't help but think that Anthony being gone from your life is the best thing. He has proven that he is not trustworthy.

beachteacher said...

I think you made the right decision...makes sense in my head...even though I know it's difficult for your heart to accept. You have a beautiful heart. I'm glad that yesterday is over. I'm wishing you peace.

Tori said...

I am glad you are better. I wondered what was going on with your blog. I know this has to be very difficult for you. I hope that he does get help and accepts it.

Anonymous said...

Hi Barbara.
I am not sure how blogging works as I, myself don't have a blog, but have you also considered removing some comments that your readers have made in reference to what you were deleting the other day. Some of them refer to what you were wanting to delete. I am just trying to protect you by bringing this to your attention.
Shelley in SK

Bar L. said...

Shelley,

Thanks, that's a good idea. It crossed my mind, but then I never did it so I'm glad you brought it up. I am also very glad you use your name in your comments because I "know you". I would like to know more about you, I appreciate your comments a lot so write me sometime if you feel like it, my email is on my profile :)

Debby of Oxycontin and Opiate Addiction: A Mother's Story said...

My son had a friend similar to Ant. Finally, my son has him out of his life. "M" has a pregnant girlfriend and two felonies. It's just a matter of time before he's got three strikes and it's prison. It's so sad, because I like the young man. His parents have tried their best, but this kid is on the road to perdition. I'm reading backwards, trying to catch up on how things are going for you.
You were always there for me, when I felt so frustrated and afraid for my son. Thank you for that.

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