he stabbed himself in the stomach last night. it looks horrible. he asked me to drop him off at the mental hospital after he eats and takes a shower. i said ok. he says life is spiraling out of control and he needs to be in the hospital for a few days to feel better. i don't know what to think but i will take him. what he can't see is that he creates all these problems himself...what i can't see is that he "can't help it" its out of his control. is it? what is the point of all this crazy shit? i truly don't get it. i do know that the drugs and alcohol are a way of controlling the out of control feelings he has (including anger, fear, deep depression, anxiety, rage) but that the drugs are not helping, they are making it worse. he says he wants to die but if so...he'd be dead by now. i believe he wants to live. i am too tired to use the cap key or hit the return button. i wish he'd stay away for a looooong time not just 72 hours.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
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Barbara, if it were me, I would call the police and say that my adult son is in my house with a self imposed stab wound. Let them deal with it. They are better equipped to handle him than you are. Prayers being sent for you.
BRB, I just can't do that.
I understand. Keep yourself safe.
Crap.please please please. SHARE your desperation with the crisis team where you are going. 72 hours is folly. If K is like my son he will finagle and minimize and discount his behavior to the therapists. Not to manipulate. He WANTS to NOT be how he is. Please tell every detail. Do not let them send him home. Tell them you are scared. That he and you are not safe. BEG for an inpatient hospital stay. Addiction first, mental illness next.Talk to a social worker. K might be eligible for financial aid for his inpatient stay. He MUST be hospitalized. Stay up. Don't let this defaet you. Advocate for YOUR needs. This will help K get the help HE needs. Bless you and Keven. Hugs, Kris B
Barbara,I wish I had words that could some how help... Just please know that you and Kevin are both in my thoughts and prayers tonight. I have such a heart for all of these kids. And it really breaks my heart when there is such suffering.I'm glad that Kevin has asked to go to the hospital...it's the best place for him right now. Try to take care of yourself. (((hugs))) Kristi
I am praying right now. All is not lost he is looking for help and you are taking him there. I am praying that they will have an answer. Please keep us posted I am so worried for you both, this is scarey scarey stuff. If he can hurt himself, could he hurt you? Maybe home isn't the right place for him for a longgggg while.
I think that he needs inpatient care. Has he called his therapist/psychiatrist? It sounds as if he has so much rage against himself. If he were really wanting to hurt himself or kill himself, it seems that the authorities need to know now. I hope that you get some rest.
Dear Lord, please step in and provide a divine intervention in Keven's life. I pray that you will hold him in your loving light and place a person in his path that can provide relief from his mental illness, and at the same time hopefully provide some peaceful time for his mother. Amen
As usual, I just love you. Know I am praying! And as the others said, please stay safe.
I believe that you should have called the police about Keven stabbing himself. You have to look after you here. Keven is unstable and is a danger to himself and to others. This includes you because all of this is so hard on you. A hospital stay is the best thing right now and perhaps it is time for him to leave your home until he is stable. I know it is hard, but necessary.
I am praying for both of you!
Actually I really agree with BRB. I know its hard. But I also know that if the police bring him in, they pay more attention and he may get to stay longer than 72 hours. Nami told me to keep a diary of the behaviors and that can used to commit someone if we feel they are a danger to themselves. Stabbing himself in the gut is dangerous to himself.
I know the heartbreak and how tired and sick you must feel. Be strong Love....do what you *know* is best. Not what you feel right now. I am praying. ((HUG))
Barbara, I think you should have him committed to a psych hospital. He needs to be on suicide watch or at least under observation for a few weeks.
Oh, Barbara, I don't know what to say...my heart goes out to you. Stay strong. Because that is what mothers do. I like to believe that everything happens for a reason, and eventually in our lives all the reasons will be revealed to us. It is the hardest when those reasons are so mysterious and painful. I will be thinking about you.
Dearest Barb, my heart aches to read your post. please, please reach out for help. You both need it. Don't try to control this one. He needs more than you can give. And you need someone to come alongside.
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