Sigh.
Is Keven ready to quit?
Or is this just the beginning of a looooong process that may or may not end in the next ten years....or in his lifetime.
There are so few success stories.
I remember when I thought he would be one.
I guess this "second chance" (LET'S SEE HOW ABOUT TWELFTH CHANCE?) could be the one?
Who the hell knows.
I am slowly catching up with all my blog friends.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
8 comments:
Barbara, it sounds like the same story as before.
Praying that you can find the strength to come through this intact. I am worried about you...
I'm sorry Barbara, I have to agree with Sid. Shane's going through his own relapse, and after realizing we were sucked in once again, we are trying to let him suffer the consequences. He's 18 now and off probation, so there's no longer any legal "control" over him, and he's taking advantage of it. A book I found helpful is STAY CLOSE: A MOTHER’S STORY OF HER SON’S ADDICTION. Her story is all of ours. I love you and am praying that you remain strong <3
oh Barbara....again,...all I can say is try to just focus on the moment you're in....which isn't easy, I know. It's so natural to just want to know what will happen later,...and worry about it not being good. I need to also take my own advice, mind you. We put out son out of the house today,...and I'm not o.k. with the discomfort of this and not knowing what will happen for him either. Bless you Barbara...you have REALLY done everything you could...and I agree....I hate that the court has put you on police duty. :(
Hugs to you..
I'm slowly catching up as well and just went through a fast roller-coaster reading your posts. I don't know how you managed to hold on. No, I do know, it's love of K. It's amazing to me the ups and downs that happen so quickly with all our families. I have no idea how you managed to go to sleep the one night.
Who does know? I think we shouldn't be in denial, and close our eyes... at the same time, ultimately, I can't give up hope. I do have hope for K. He is in a battle, but so far he seems to have been open with you and has been fighting it *when he is able*. He DID go back and turn himself in.
I continue to pray for him everyday (and you, your mom, Ant & Ant's son!).
Love and hugs to you!
And oh, going back quite a few posts, what a beautiful picture of you. Don't lose that smile, find time for you.
Thanks everyone. I agree with all of what was said here. I liked the way HBS phrased it "putting a cushion between him and his bottom". He still has it all and very few consequences. He got $40 CASH from my mom today because he knows she can't say no. I feel like leaving and moving someowhere else and letting my mom and sister enable their hearts out. I am done and I am sick of it.
God is th God of many chances. I am proff of that with over 1 million chances so far and counting.
Barbara...I tried and failed at sobriety many, many times. I used for close to ten years. In that time, I tried methadone. I tried cold turkey. I tried outpatient counseling. I tried inpatient treatment. I moved. I moved back. Part of the disease is relapse. I think I had to experience relapse over and over to finally understand where my limits where. I thought if I quit heroin, I could still drink...well, I had to learn that lesson the hard way, too. It is a long and arduous process, and most people who get better try numerous times. Unfortunately, it is part of the beast. I pray for the best this time. Hang in there...
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