July 9, 2010

So Much for My Peacefull Weekend...

Got a call at 5:30 a.m., they let him out. Ugh. Went and got him. I admit its a disappointment to me and it slightly disturbs me how much I was looking forward to not having him around for a few days. I should have left him there to find another way home. He's in a bad mood and didn't even thank me. I'm hurt and mad.

UPDATE: Minutes after I wrote this, he texted me to say he was sorry and that he loved me. He feels like "everything" is stressful right now.

Thank you all for your comments.....I am going to try and relax this weekend and enjoy it. I have no plans other than going to the library - and I think my dog will be taking me for a walk or two :)


9 comments:

Em said...

Oh no, I wonder why! Well, maybe this is God's plan...you should just have your relaxing weekend anyway, regardless :)

Syd said...

I hope that you still have a good weekend.

LisaC said...

Detaching doesn't have to be forever, but it is something that you have to do in the short-term in order to keep your health and sanity, while he figures out what he seriously wants to do.

Take care of yourself...that is your priority.

Someone in our blog family said to me that addicts have "more" guardian angels on their shoulders than the average person, and I believe that is true. Keven can/will take care of himself. He manages to get drugs when he wants them...but as Mom's we think they will not eat or find a place to sleep. They always do.

My heart is breaking for you, but I am praying for you as well.

Sherry said...

I also hope you still have a good weekend!!

Kristi (Jake's Mom) said...

Barbara, I know EXACTLY how your feeling!! As terrible as it might sound, I loved the almost 3 months Jake spent in county jail. I knew where he was, I knew he was being fed, I knew there was little risk of him using, I knew he was fine there and best of all, I knew he would wake up every morning….I was able to sleep, relax and breath. Try to enjoy your weekend and just let Kevin work through his mood….it’s of his own doing, not yours. We live by the choices we make!! I hope you have a nice weekend in spite of things, you deserve it!! Keeping you and Kevin in my prayers always!!

Annette said...

Hey! Here you are in my reader. I know what you are saying. Jail, rehab, those are all breaks for us. We know they are safe and in one place. Take good care of you this weekend. Can you got a meeting and connect with some real live people who get what you are going through? Wish I was closer...we are having an Alanon fundraiser tomorrow with lunch and speakers....I would pick you up! :o)

Bristolvol said...

Barbara,
I hear your disappointment. Don't allow yourself to be the helpless victim of his moods and circumstances. Time to show some teeth! No rides, no nothing. It's time for you! I would give him his meds and tell him that he has to deal with the consequences of his actions.

Heather's Mom said...

I can see how you would be mad and hurt. Any chance you can go in your room, shut the door and escape for a while tonight? You deserve some rest after the roller coaster of the past couple days.
I hope K heard the judge, realized the disappointment. Seems like they don't listen when we talk, but other people can get through. K probably didn't mean to be neglectful toward you this morning - HOPEFULLY the realization/reality of HIS circumstances was setting in and he was contemplating how badly he messed this up. I hope...???
A big hug to you!!!

parentofanaddictcdcb said...

I am so sorry you are having to go through all this. I hear your pain, anger and disappointment.
I agree with the others. Try to make this weekend about you...no rides, no nothing for anyone else as much as possible. You really need this.
Keep us posted. We are here for you.
Prayers and hugs
Carolyn

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