The last few days have been pretty good. Keven has been more talkative, has not been high and has (shock) taken care of some of his responsibilities.
Today he went to the beach with his gf and her bff. While he was swimming they were on the beach sneaking Xanax and drinking vodka out of water bottles. When he figured it out, it was too late - they were wasted.
He brought them here and has been "babysitting" them for three hours. He told me all about what happened, paced around my room stressed out (in fear his PO would show up and find two wasted girls in his bedroom).
I bit my tongue and didn't say much and at one point he looked at me and said "I know....this is what I have put you through a million times, huh?" I just said "yep." Sometimes with him, saying little says the most.
When his gf's friend fell down our stairs I said "enough is enough call her mom!" So he dialed her mom and forced her to talk to her. I could here one side of the conversation so I know the mom is aware that her daughter is very high "Hi mom, I'm at Keven's. What time is it? We went to the beach. I'm at.....Ummm, where am I again? Oh yeah, I'm at Keven's. What time is it?"
Sad.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
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I don't know how to say this but will put it out there: How would life be without the drama of having substance abusers in it? For me, it is good to not have the anxiety and the stress of having drinking and drugging part of every day. Maybe a moratorium on drama is in order. A week without it might be a good thing.
Syd, I appreciate you being candid. I guess I am so used to the drama that sometimes it doesn't phase me. It used to destroy me. I'm not ready to ask my son to leave, I am trying to take it one day at a time and see how things go.
As the song goes.... Wasted days and wasted nights. Being wasted is such a waste of life.
How easy would it have been for Keven to jump in with the girls? Really, too easy. And, he didn't. Good for him. No matter what the reason, he didn't. He had some insight and recognized how hard his behavior must be on you.
I am glad that you called gf's mom. It is too much of burden for you to protect and guide Keven much less his gf, too.
xx kris
Why on earth would they think downing vodka and popping Xanax would be fun or a good idea? This is where the..."stay away from all people, places and things associated with your addiction" kicks in. I would like to offer some comfort Barb and say that maybe he learned his lesson but umm I am just not feeling it. I have come to the conclusion that addicts lose all good judgement in direct proportion to how many drugs they have taken.
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