Thanks for all the comments I appreciate each and every word. I feel like we are all in such a similar "boat" and luckily when someone's boat starts to feel like its sinking, there are others around to keep it afloat. I have no clue it that analogy makes sense (Syd - is it possible to save a sinking boat?), but I know you get what I mean.
Keven went to visit "L" and said to me before he left (in these exact words) "I am not going to enable her or help her, I am just going to be there for her". I think he's better at this than I am :)
Then he called lost after driving around for over an hour and I could hear the panic in his voice. I had given him the wrong directions because I trusted Google Maps. I will NEVER trust them again, this is not the first time this has happened.
He finally found the hospital. He said he was felt that ominous feeling that something bad was going to happen soon. Shit. That's all I can say. I said "no, it won't" but how do I know.
I am sooooooooooooooooo tired tonight. I need to rest but first, I'm going to catch up with some of you!
P.S. He's home and struggling really bad and just told me he can't eat anymore...he's only had a few bites here and there in the last few days.
I keep waiting, waiting...for something to make him feel BETTER.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara