He was in a good mood: WHY?
He dug out his old rock collection out from under my bed (not music, actual rocks)and showed it to his gf. WHY?
He text'd me that he loved me for no reason. WHY?
He used my bathroom instead of the one he usually uses. WHY?
He seems to be cleaning his room. WHY?
He hasn't shaved in two days. WHY?
I'm sure not all parents question every move their kid makes, but I am so programmed to be suspicious I can't seem to help myself.
Just relax. If something is "up" you will find out soon enough. Ok. I feel better now that I wrote about it.
UPDATE: He just asked for $5 to get a Dairy Queen for his gf and then KISSED me and my sister goodbye. This is sooooooo not normal! WHY????
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
8 comments:
I find when I ask the "why" I never get the answer and only cause myself much distress. I hate to see you in such obsessive thought when there is absolutely nothing that will come from that, nothing but stress and bad health for you. Please focus on yourself and your needs for your own health because we all care so much about you. I am praying for you both and will place your names in my God box tonight. (((HUGS)))
one day at a time love, you are in my prayers.
Asking why is like dialing for pain...if we do it we are asking for trouble.
Hoping everything goes well today and praying for some peace for you.
Carolyn
I never found any answers for why. Best to just focus on you and what you are doing. Take care.
When my kids are too nice, we suspect something.
But, with Keven it sounds like he is relieved, sticking close to you and enjoying what he is getting back from feeling good. Go with it. He wears his moods on his sleeve. If he was hiding something, you'd know by now.
We all know EXACTLY what you are talking about. Watching how they walk, the way they close the door - with my daughter, even the way she breathes. We are constantly looking for clues so that, either we can try to preempt whatever is coming our way, or gird ourselves for the next crisis. In either case, it is what it is and the constant vigilance will only exhaust you.
Maybe there is a "new normal" coming into view.
xx kris
I love this post. It made me smile. Peace, hope and love back at ya.
This is a perfect word picture of why I can't live with H! LOL If she was doing ok I was wondering "why." If she was doing bad I was wondering "why." It wasn't healthy and I couldn't "let go" with her under my roof while I could see everything she was doing. I am a pupil checker... you know what I mean! It was exhausting....they look big, they look small, are we standing in bright light, room light, or dim light. What do Molly's look like, can I compare? Absolute craziness!
Omg Annette.....yes, the pupil checking ! Haven't we all done that?....and also thinking...what level of light is in the room right now....going to look at his brother or my husband's pupils to compare, etc. etc.. It's brutal.
I'm sorry Barbara,..and yes, this is a nutty way to live. My son is doing so much better, but the consequences still follow behind us like a mosquito tring to bite you. He went to court today and was convicted of possession w/ intent to distribute,..which he hasn't done since February. I know that's not that long,...but then again you all know that really, it is. He turned around completely at that point, but his consequences hit him today...and he goes before the judge again in late July, where this conviction could prompt the one in July. Even with him doing so well now,..this remains exhausting and sad. Thanks for listening to all of you.
Lori
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