Without going into a ton of detail, I am waiting for Keven to call from jail. At court yesterday he was given yet another week to choose what he wants to do. After a long talk with our attorney, I've had some difficult introspection and decisions to make. I'll share more when I know the outcome.
Bottom line: The addict can suck the life out of the entire family, IF you let him.
Its not fair, but that's how it is. And the real unfairness of it all is that when you choose not to let them suck the life out of you - that in itself can become all consuming, draining, stressful and emotional.
So its a constant battle of staying on my toes and going against my nature as a mother.
Total bottom line: I'm drained. I feel like that apple.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
