Suspicious Minds

K just informed me that he does not need a ride tomorrow because rather than taking a day  pass he is staying in PH and helping on a project.

My first thought:  He's lying.  He is up to no good.

My mind goes a million different directions, I am filled with fear and worry.

Then I had to calm down and tell myself two things:

1.  He may be telling the truth, he really likes PH and I can tell he feels good being part of the community, perhaps he really is going to help out on a project.

2.  Even if he is up to something, there is nothing I can do about it.  Its his choice, his life.

This is a taste of what it will be like when he comes home.  Constantly wondering if he's lying or not.  I hate that it has to be this way, but it is.  When do you regain trust in an addict?  Do you ever?

Song of the day:

Suspicious Minds - Elvis Presl...

Peace, Hope and Love,
Barbara