Enabling Checklist

I found this in some notes and thought it might be helpful as a reminder of things NOT to do:

• give or lend money
• provide a place to live
• rescue/fix problems
• supply a car or transportation
• buy or provide alcohol or drugs
• bail out of jail
• lie to cover up problems
• deny the addiction to others
• defend behaviors to others
• ignore or laugh at the problem
• argue, plead, beg, threaten, placate, bargain
• insist nothing can be done
• keep secrets for the alcoholic
• put yourself in jeopardy
• allow drunk driving
• take over responsibilities
• protect from negative consequences
• blame other people or circumstances
• avoid social functions
• provide employment
• finance school related expenses
• pay bills

IN OTHER NEWS:  GUESS WHO'S GOING TO U2 TOMORROW NIGHT AND IS SO EXCITED SHE CAN BARELY CONTAIN HERSELF???????????????????????????????????????  yeah, baby!

Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara

Numb

I just feel numb today, and yesterday.  I can't explain why.

I think it was more like I was depressed but refused to acknowledge it because I "shouldn't" be depressed (I think it was Louise Hay who said "don't should on yourself!").

I have a long searched for job (part time), my son is in residential treatment, I have tons of stuff to be grateful for....but there's something inside me that wants to crawl in bed and not get up till "its over".  I don't even know what "it" is.

One thing I have to be excited about it that I will be seeing U2 one month from today.  Last time they toured (prior to the tour in '09 when Bono hurt his back and had to reschedule Anaheim till NOW) was 2005.  I'm going with a friend who's never seen them in concert, he'll be blown away.

U2 just happens to have a song titled "Numb" sang (well if you can call it singing) by The Edge.  Here are the lyrics.  For some reason, I like the monotone/industrial sound of it:



Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara