Hospital

Just got back from five hours in the ER with Keven.  He admitted himself for extreme panic/anxiety because he couldn't control it any longer and didn't trust himself.  It breaks my heart to see him go through this.  There were not beds open so he has to stay in the ER all night and possibly be transfered in the morning to a different place.  I hope not.

We had some really good conversations during the wait and hopefully he will be able to process some things with less anxiety.

I am tired.

His biggest worry is that he will be like this forever, that he will always struggle with both the anxiety and addiction.  Unfortunately he probably will but I'm trying my best to get him to stop looking at the rest of his life and focus on today.  Do what you need to do today.  Live today.  Its very difficult for him to do that.  Actually, its difficult for most of us to do that.

Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara