Just found out I lost my unemployment appeal and will not be receiving benefits.
My former employer sent five people to lie to the judge, so it was five against one. I thought for sure he would recognize that they were lying but I guess not...numbers talk and there was no one I could call as a witness because they were all paid (in one way or another) to lie.
Life is not always fair.
I am officially freaked out over my finances and can't live on my credit cards much longer because they've all come close to the limit and no one will give me a higher limit because I have no income.
What does a person do in this situation? I am very, very fortunate to have a roof over my head and food to eat but won't be able to pay my bills much longer. Can they take me to jail? I've never not paid bills in my life.
I can't find a damn job. I am trying every single day. I am supporting not only myself but my son. What's he suppose to do when my credit runs out because he can't find a job either.
Not a happy day.
P.S. I am also getting discouraged at all the ads wanting someone "bi-lingual". I'd say at least half say bi-lingual preferred and some say its a must have. Who knew taking French rather than Spanish in high school would affect my future? Not me.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
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February 24, 2011
February 5, 2011
Everything Happens for a Reason (?)
I woke up with a smile on my face and a positive outlook on life. Bizarre, but true.
Annette mentioned in a comment below that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that too, do you? I used to hate the thought of that because it always made me think "what was he reason my dad had to die when he was so young?". I still haven't figured that out because I think my life would have been different (better) if he had lived. But I may not have had Keven....I probably would have got married and had a family the normal way because I would have been a different person if my dad was around during my teens and my life would have taken a different direction.
Anyhow, I feel better today. Thanks for the support yesterday. My plan is to go visit him today (I am so lucky its only a short drive) and have a talk with him face to face about what's going on and what will most likely happen next.
We still have an attorney and she called me twice yesterday. She knew all about this before Keven or I did since she works closely with his PO. She also knows the judge really well and thinks after her initial anger at Keven wears off she will give him yet another "final chance" and send him back to Cornerstone. Unfortunately this means back to "Extended Care" which means at least $10,000 (or more). My family is tapped out financially because of Keven, so I dug out all my credit cards (I had several in a drawer with 0 balance) and am going to max them all out to pay for it. I already have four maxed our cards so what the hell....what's another 10 grand right????
I refuse to let this get me down. I have "relapsed" myself by not taking care of myself like I should and spending too much time focused on Keven and Anthony.
Speaking of Ant - I know I said I was done with him, of course that was said in anger. I went to see him two days ago and it was pathetic. He'd been off heroin for days but was so high he could barely stand up, his eyes were half closed and he was slurring his words. He doesn't remember me being there. He was taking Suboxone and eating chocolate bars laced with hash oil. Lovely. He even insisted that I take a few home so I did, and tossed them in the trash.
At least he's in a detox now and from there off to yet another rehab. I kind of am done with him. I love him, but I am closing the door now so it won't hurt so much to see him either incarcerated or buried. I don't think he's going to make it long in this world.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
Annette mentioned in a comment below that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that too, do you? I used to hate the thought of that because it always made me think "what was he reason my dad had to die when he was so young?". I still haven't figured that out because I think my life would have been different (better) if he had lived. But I may not have had Keven....I probably would have got married and had a family the normal way because I would have been a different person if my dad was around during my teens and my life would have taken a different direction.
Anyhow, I feel better today. Thanks for the support yesterday. My plan is to go visit him today (I am so lucky its only a short drive) and have a talk with him face to face about what's going on and what will most likely happen next.
We still have an attorney and she called me twice yesterday. She knew all about this before Keven or I did since she works closely with his PO. She also knows the judge really well and thinks after her initial anger at Keven wears off she will give him yet another "final chance" and send him back to Cornerstone. Unfortunately this means back to "Extended Care" which means at least $10,000 (or more). My family is tapped out financially because of Keven, so I dug out all my credit cards (I had several in a drawer with 0 balance) and am going to max them all out to pay for it. I already have four maxed our cards so what the hell....what's another 10 grand right????
I refuse to let this get me down. I have "relapsed" myself by not taking care of myself like I should and spending too much time focused on Keven and Anthony.
Speaking of Ant - I know I said I was done with him, of course that was said in anger. I went to see him two days ago and it was pathetic. He'd been off heroin for days but was so high he could barely stand up, his eyes were half closed and he was slurring his words. He doesn't remember me being there. He was taking Suboxone and eating chocolate bars laced with hash oil. Lovely. He even insisted that I take a few home so I did, and tossed them in the trash.
At least he's in a detox now and from there off to yet another rehab. I kind of am done with him. I love him, but I am closing the door now so it won't hurt so much to see him either incarcerated or buried. I don't think he's going to make it long in this world.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
October 28, 2009
Institutionalized Cruelty and other Unfairness in Our "Justice" System
(warning - I'm ranting today!)
I am watching Jane Valez Mitchell on CNN. She's a bit dramatic but I almost always agree with her viewpoints and appreciate her bringing attention to issues other people won't touch. Like today, here are some things she and her panel are saying about our prison system:
Jails and prisons are full of non-violent drug offenders that are treated the same as criminals which does NOTHING to solve the problem, it creates MORE of a problem by CREATING HARD CRIMINALS.
They said that three types of these inmates should be evaluated and treated rather than thrown into the system where, depending on their "class", size, and personality - will end up being the ones most abused in jail. The three types are:
These are the types that USUALLY go in because of mistakes/drugs and come out as hardened criminals.
Even if we don't care about the "criminals" we should be concerned about helping rehabilitation to keep ourselves safe because when they get our they are more likely to commit violent crimes.
There are more people in the US prison system than any other country even though many countries have a much larger population.
There is no rehabilitation offered in most jails/prisons.
It just makes me so mad that we (the US) recongnizes addiction as a disease but treats addicts like criminals (unless you have money).
Oh, one last thing...speaking of money:
It also costs the family of the person in jail. Yes, I put money on my son's books so he can buy things like: soap, stamps, paper, envelopes, shampoo, a pillow, Top Ramen (his main food staple because they don't feed him enough). Yes, I also pay about $50 a month or more on receiving phone calls from him because I WANT to talk to him.
Some prisoners don't have ANY of these things and they are treated poorly - can you imagine being in jail with no soap or shampoo or not able to write a letter? I think that's a bit extreme. But not all families can afford to keep money on their loved one's books all the time.
How come a young man born in a poor area can be put in jail for years for domestic violence but Chris Brown got community service? MONEY.
How come when Lindsay Lohan got arrested for DUI and had more drugs on her than my son had on him when he was arrested (and he was not DUI) she got 84 MINUTES in jail and my son is on day 67?
Ok, I really am off my soapbox now...
Jails and prisons are full of non-violent drug offenders that are treated the same as criminals which does NOTHING to solve the problem, it creates MORE of a problem by CREATING HARD CRIMINALS.
They said that three types of these inmates should be evaluated and treated rather than thrown into the system where, depending on their "class", size, and personality - will end up being the ones most abused in jail. The three types are:
- ADHD
- Bi-polar
- Learning disability
These are the types that USUALLY go in because of mistakes/drugs and come out as hardened criminals.
Even if we don't care about the "criminals" we should be concerned about helping rehabilitation to keep ourselves safe because when they get our they are more likely to commit violent crimes.
It costs $30,000 A YEAR TO HOUSE ONE PRISONER! Why can't we use some of that money to REHABILITATE drug addicts???
78,000 people were arrested and prosecuted for marijuana in CA alone last year! Why are we focusing on that when thereare child molesters and rapists running around?
Addiction does not go away with incarceration.
They are saying all this starts in the home - that's not true, if that were true most of us would not have kids on drugs/in jail because we did our best....and those of you with more than one child, wouldn't ALL your kids be in jail if it were your lack of parenting skills or concern that influenced their drug addiction????
For every 100 Americans there is one person in prison. WHAT?
There are more people in the US prison system than any other country even though many countries have a much larger population.
We are so focused on crime and punishment we have dropped the ball of prevention. I AGREE!
There is no rehabilitation offered in most jails/prisons.
When young people (like my son) are prosecuted and found guilty for drug charges, they are at a huge disadvantage for getting a good job because they already have a felony on their record. Yes CELEBRITIES can get away with MURDER.
Ok. I am going to settle down now. Yes, our justice system is messed up. It has a lot to do with MONEY. If you have money you hire an attorney and get off for the same crimes that send our kids to jail for minor drug offenses due to the disease of ADDICTION. It just makes me so mad that we (the US) recongnizes addiction as a disease but treats addicts like criminals (unless you have money).
Oh, one last thing...speaking of money:
It also costs the family of the person in jail. Yes, I put money on my son's books so he can buy things like: soap, stamps, paper, envelopes, shampoo, a pillow, Top Ramen (his main food staple because they don't feed him enough). Yes, I also pay about $50 a month or more on receiving phone calls from him because I WANT to talk to him.
Some prisoners don't have ANY of these things and they are treated poorly - can you imagine being in jail with no soap or shampoo or not able to write a letter? I think that's a bit extreme. But not all families can afford to keep money on their loved one's books all the time.
How come a young man born in a poor area can be put in jail for years for domestic violence but Chris Brown got community service? MONEY.
How come when Lindsay Lohan got arrested for DUI and had more drugs on her than my son had on him when he was arrested (and he was not DUI) she got 84 MINUTES in jail and my son is on day 67?
Ok, I really am off my soapbox now...
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