Happy Father's Day to the mothers who are raising their children alone, especially a special young mom who reads this blog. Its not easy to be the only parent. I learned about halfway through that I could simply not be a father and a mother. We are mothers doing doing it all, but we can't be fathers simply because we are women, not men.
The U2 concert was great, my friend had a wonderful time and that matters more to me than me having a good time. Our seats were insanely good - so close to the stage.
But hearing of Clarence Clemons passing right before we walked into the stadium really put a dark cloud over the evening for me.
Yet, I felt depressed all day yesterday so I know it wasn't only losing a vital member of my favorite band of all time, its something more. I don't know what it is but I feel it deep inside me right now. The scary kind of depression that comes out of nowhere for no reason.
Going to visit Keven in a few hours. I'm nervous because no matter how cheerful I act on the outside, he can tell when I am sad and it hurts him. I don't want to cause him to feel bad just because I do. But I guess that's how families work.
Hope all of you are doing good. I will catch up on blogs as soon as I can.
Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara
