Keven tested clean last night. Sigh of relief. The house he's in is perfect for him right now, just don't know if he sees it that way. He's very sick from Suboxone withdrawal. I need to look up and see how long that lasts, apparently its worse than being dope sick and lasts longer.
Thank you for all the comments left.
I have no intention of letting Keven move back home, ever. This last time was not full of drama but it was full of dishonesty and to me, that's worse, even though its to be expected.
My goal for today: Catch up on blogs.
Peace, Hope and Love,
Barbara
On A Personal Note:
Countdown 4 Days until trying to get tickets for Bruce. Normally I buy tickets on-line then upgrade them later if they aren't good enough. BUT rumor has it that the f'ing ticket scalpers are snatching up MOST of the tickets and forcing us to pay high prices. Bruce would be pissed, this is so unfair, but its legal. In fact, due to some sort of computer hacking, when tickets for the NY and Jersey shows went on sale last week ONLY the scalpers could get them (Stub Hub is EVIL).
So wish me luck because this is a VERY BIG DEAL to me and I will, if I have to, pay hundreds because I can't miss him. This will be my 25th time? 26th? I lost count but haven't missed a show since my first one in 1981.
20 comments:
Don't look it up....Ignorance can be bliss...let it be his problem...you keep plotting about getting those tickets!!! Barbara, I say this with love afterhaving walked this path!!
is he still around...
Hattie,
Thank you. I needed that.
still around??????? Ha, very cute. You know it, baby! He'll do a second leg of the tour in the Fall (hopefully).
Ooops part of my comment to Mike was cut off. It should have read:
Mike, Is he still around??????? Ha, very cute. You know it, baby! He'll do a second leg of the tour in the Fall (hopefully).
If Little Steven retires maybe he'll give you a call.
Hi. You will get the tickets . . . you deserve them :-)
Hope you're enjoying the peace and I'm pleased that they took Keven on.
I hope I dint come across as harsh on previous comment.
I think I'm better off not commenting when something makes me cross as I always feel bad afterwards . . . Lesson learnt ;-) Hopefully.
Take care. With love.
BugerLu,
Your comments are never WANT YOUR INPUT!
Barbara, it sounds like you have an addiction to Bruce. Don't make us do an intervention! ;)
Also, I wanted to say this earlier, but I didn't want to be attacked...lots of addicts use right up to the moment they enter treatment. For three days before my son left for Florida, he was handcuffed to my husband. Yep, we went there!!! I wouldn't change a thing.
Suboxone withdrawal is not worse than opiate withdrawal...it just drags out a long time, which for some is worse? A damned if you do damned if you don't kind of thing. Can't they let him taper slowly off suboxone? It has like a 30-72 hour half life. Slow is better with much less side effects and when I mean slow...I am talking about like 60 days or more.
Notmyboy, LOL~! I would call it a deep appreciation vs. an addiction...but you may be right :)
His concerts are just so darn FUN.
Mom's,
Unfortunately Mr. Keven was taking them on his own and buying them illegally (I got him one RX and he told me he weaned himself off.) But thanks for the input. Hope he learns someday.
"My daughter, Carly, has been in and out of drug treatment facilities since she was thirteen. Every time she goes away, I have a routine: I go through her room and search for drugs she may have left behind. We have a laugh these days because Carly says, “So you were looking for drugs I might have left behind? I’m a drug addict, Mother. We don’t leave drugs behind, especially if we’re going into treatment. We do all the drugs. We don’t save drugs back for later. If I have drugs, I do them. All of them. If I had my way, we would stop for more drugs on the way to rehab, and I would do them in the parking lot of the treatment center.”
from the biography "Everything I never wanted to be" by Dina Kucera
XOXO
Barbara:
I'll keep my fingers crossed that you get your ticket. I'm going to see him in Cleveland. My seats aren't great, but at least I'm in the building. I'm so excited.
Barbara - I hope you get your tickets!
Also praying Kev meets someone who inspires him...
Barbara, so glad that he got in. Now it's time again to put the focus on yourself, right? Be good to you. You're all you have.
babs,
I bought Van Halen tickets over the weekend. I share your addiction to aging rockstars.
Glad to hear that he's in there,..for him and for YOU ! I am praying that he really has a moment of clarity in there, and like said above, will meet someone who moves him enough to keep doing the next right thing. Addicts need other addicts to help each other do it. I'm really hoping Keven will know that and lean on others,..,such as a sponsor, to help him start following a more positive path. Sending hugs and hope to you both.
Best of luck to both of you, but if he doesn't learn anything its not your fault and I hope you have an awesome time at the concert. (no offense meant)
You are so strong, my friend. I so hope you get the tickets. Maybe you'll just have to take a trip to New Orleans to see him at first weekend at Jazzfest. Isn't about time you went to Jazzfest? Huh?
Good luck getting your concert tickets! Do you know, I have never been to a concert? I get anxious just thinking about being in a big crowd. I know it is weird, and I know it is probably interfering with a normal life...
My daughter had her baby yesterday. She is in a sober living home that is blech! It looks like a nursing home. She shares her room with another mom. The only furniture is two beds and two cribs -- no place to store toys and clothes. So they are all over the place. Their room is filthy!
Thank you everyone for these comments. I need and want all the comments I can get.
Lou - that is SO true. I remember stopping at McDonalds once on the way to a rehab cause Keven was "sick" and needed to use the bathroom. He was getting high in there. Duh. :)
Lisa - I'm glad you got a ticket! I'm going no matter what and usually pay $300 for a ticket (my sister usually buys it for me, since we go to them together every time.
JULIE - congrats on your new grandchild. She/he was not born into good circumstances but hopefully this will be a turning point for your daughter.
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