Well, another Christmas has come and gone and I have to say this one was full of drug drama. I was entangled in it for less than 24 hours and have extricated myself (is that the right word? it sounds funny). Anyhow, Keven is in the hospital covered with infections all over his face, hands and body from his meth use, he's there to detox but they have him in isolation due to the severity of his condition. Lovely.
Ant is - well, I don't know. He WAS in the hospital (he didn't get arrested Christmas night, he ran and that's when he sprained his ankle - they kept him in the hospital for 24 hours). He called me crying and begging me to let him stay here since he couldn't walk, had no where to go and needed rest. I almost laughed, but just said "No." (oh, and he said "I guess I shouldn't have gone to try and help Keven". Nice excuse, make it sound like you were the hero rescuing my son who just happened to have a place for him to stay, money and DRUGS.)
Its amazing, but not surprising, how quickly addiction can take all the hard work a person has put into recovery and then flush it in the toilet after one use. Its also amazing how a handsome young man can look like a monster after one week of using.
Today I have some plans for things I enjoy doing (its my normal day off so I had a 4 day weekend!). And hopefully I will get to spend time with my friend Kathy. But before any of that, I'm going to catch up on blogs and see what's going on with you guys.
Peace, Hope and Love,
Barbara
16 comments:
Sounds to me like you are the one that is now "clear and sober."
YAY for you Barbara! Enjoy your day off and stay away from the drama.
Good for you, Barbara! It sounds like you are truly realizing that 'it' is out of your control. Have a good day.
Shelley in SK
It must be so tough to not get involved but you are doing the right thing. I hope things improve but you can't waste your life waiting for that to happen.
Whoa!! I can relate. Also had drug drama since Christmas Eve. You are doing a tremendous job of dealing with the situation. I admire your determination. Stay strong.
Good, Barbara. Glad that you are focusing elsewhere than the drug behavior. Enjoy your day. I think that addicts will do anything to hook another person into their chaos. Extricating yourself is a great idea.
Wow Barbara ...can't tell you how impressed I am with you. I take that back,.....yes I can,... I'm impressed !
It's all horrific but you backed out of it. It's amazing how fast it all went from bad to worse, but we all know how easily that can happen, sadly. And how is it that Keven had $ ? I thought just recently he had no wallet, $, nor phone. As we've all said,...addicts are so damn resourceful when they want to be.
I hope your strength & whatever level of peace you can muster grow & continue,...& as always, I pray that both Kevin & Ant will get what they need to do to have a decent life, & do those things. God knows that their current choices aren't creating that for either of them.
Hugs to you bigtime.
((HUG)) You are doing a good job Barbara. Hard as it all is.
Hope you have a great day.
My daughter calls meth "satan" - it ruins everything. A few years ago we were at an AA retreat and one of my old friends - who is old and doesn't care what he says - came up to us and said "I know I should say this, but you look younger than your daughter." Ihope that changes in time, but 15 years of meth did a number on her face - and teeth (which she had extensive dental work on, so you can't see that).
It seems like you have struck the right balance between caring and keeping out of things. Love from a distance, as they say. I'm very proud of you, Barbara. I know it can't be easy.
I'm sure you are aware that it takes 24 months to heal the brain from meth use. You will have to be one patient lady, my friend.
Good for you! Take care of yourself and then reward yourself for doing it! *hug*
I posted about it once, but meth resulted in my son's admittance to a psych hospital, after a very public melt down. I mean public, like on the 6 o'clock news. He had what is called a drug induced psychosis, and still has repercussions from that episode over 5 years ago.
Our kids have no idea what long term damage they are inflicting.
Take care, I'm sorry your holiday turned out this way.
Barbara, I am very happy to hear this. =) It sounds like you are taking care of you. What a way to end the year and begin the new one!
I'm so sorry. Meth is awful, and drugs have a way of ruining holidays. :( It sounds, though, like you handled it as well as you could. Hugs.
Hi Barbara,
I've checked your blog several times today. I hope that you are doing okay. Thinking of you.
Shelley in SK
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