I am so thankful and touched by all the people who commented on my last post.
Nothing new to report yet, but Keven is not doing well. He's lonely and depressed at rehab, apparently for the first time ever he's not popular among his peers; and he hasn't met his case manager yet after 5 days of being there.
I'm going to their Family Group tonight and hoping to see a better attitude in him.
My mother is not handling this well at all - she disagrees with me about not letting him move back, but as far as I can tell, she's going to honor that and not go "around me" and allow him home. The thought of going home tonight and having him there is very unappealing. I am just SO DONE with all this.
I am over here on the west coast thinking of all of us spread across the country, but living such similar lives. I keep hoping and praying for all of us.
Peace, Hope and Love,
Barbara
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Barb, you are doing the right thing, as hard as it is.
So proud of your resolve. I am praying for you both even if we don't know each other. We share a common struggle, and it takes a village....Keep praying, I will too.
I'm sitting here crying over my son and reading you post. Hang in there! I'm praying for yours and mine.
I'm glad you are feeling okay; prayers continue! It's all so damn hard. Hope your Family Group meeting goes well. <3<3<3
Hang in there, Barb. I am glad that you are sticking to the boundaries. Hope that things are better tomorrow. Every day is a new one filled with hope.
oh boy....no wonder you feel that way ! Last June when D was here briefly, for court, ...as soon as it was over, he said he wasn't going back to Fla.,...and I swear, I felt a sort of internal panic. And truthfully, at that point, it wasn't just.."how will this affect him?...this would mess up his recovery" It was....omg,...I can't have him living with us again...we can't get back on that roller coaster ride(after having had him out of the house for 6 mo.s) And that was,of course, after YEARS of that awful roller coaster, just like you've been on. No wonder you don't want to get back on that ride !
That being said, I hope that Keven's emotions and attitude about where he is changes for the better. I'll keep praying,....for both of you.
Your mom doesn't understand the dynamics of addiction. That's OK. You have taken the time to educate yourself, and I have seen (read) huge growth in you. In the end, your love will benefit all the people around you, especially Keven.
XOXOX
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